Slow Down, We Need Time...

Hola, amigo~ I being tired after endless mediation, here comes an indispensable comma of ours.
Profound as it is, "love" is so damn hard to comprehend for me. I attempt to, therefore, step back to focus on a "intimate relationship" first. From my point of view, the very foundation is "bilateral need". Let's start with mine.
Being angelic most of the time, my subjective need is actually "to be needed", which indicates to be a guardian angel to shelter everything under my wings. On the contrary, although I'm no longer eager to dominate my surroundings or wield my power, inspecting the world for information objectively and being insightful are still a legacy from my queen.
In this way, I really enjoy our conversation to every single line as a result of my met needs. It is sacred to watch over you and offer assistance withIn my reach. Your mentions can be a brand new approach to the world for me in the meantime. Above all, I'm self-fulfilling and ask for nothing else~
In return, I can promise my everything to you with just the exception of…
Distance…
I ask for your forgiveness of that for no "distant promise". Being capable of anticipation, I ,however, get my hands tied confronting the far future and am not willing to pledge it. Sometimes I find it unreasonable that for lasses like you take it for granted that "love could launch a thousand ships". You see, we are in development and make shifts from time to time. Our requirements, our acquaintances to each other can't be ever-lasting. We are still voyaging the life and probably meet other people who are "righter" just like the divorce story in your book… Oath is sweet to make but maybe too bitter to swallow in the end…
To be attached, there might be collision of my two needs… Reading books, taking classes or doing experiments are crucial for me as well and may take our time from me. Henceforth, I'm expecting your forgiveness sometime and, to match your consideration, I'm prepared to be totally open to you. As is held by me, communication can bridge any gaps as long as they are rational. Cutting down the chain of doubt, we can found something on reliable trust.
My lass, I have suffered a lot in my mind only to make you a "secure sphere" where you can get your hands on the situation and decide following your inner desire. I'm highly satisfied this time and just cross my fingers for your answer. Never do I want you to be aggrieved. You are in control now at the expense of my exhausted energy so please think twice before you jump.
May my valkyries wing your victory anyway while…
how about the "sphere" indeed…
Lost…

by Sylvanyao @ 2020-09-26 @ Changsha, Yuelu District
originally posted @ https://user.qzone.qq.com @ 2020-09-26
repost @ https://www.cnblogs.com @ 2022-06-19