Let Me Await Myself, My Silhouette...

Saying that I was to rearrange myself, I stayed wide awake for two subtle midnights.
The "No" partly told the truth, I came for a path to my redemption while also to figure out my complex feeling…
It was triggered each time our eyesights collided, smelling like simply agony with regret. I sometimes wonder with fear, however, whether it contained other delicate feeling…
Thanks to your generosity, my wraith went to R.I.P. eventually but left me an eagerness to do something for your call regardless of my expense within acceptability. Is it for appreciation or a reminiscence of our time or… something weighs more? Once again, I lost in the calculation but for myself…
Well, it was unlikely to be the last one. I can admit it now that I did enjoy the presence of a brisk silhouette like you around me at that time while I turned you down out of pityful vainglory… But for now… As is known to all my friends, my sufferings have made me too rational to coincide with a lass, rofl.
But on the other hand… You are really good at waking my angelic part as a bright boy… That's something I have hardly experienced…
Anyway, I'd like to convince myself that I owe you so much for your remedy and that accounts for all my feeling. Though I can tell that you, who also braved all the torments start to harness sobriety and real charm rather than former levity and innocent adorableness. That sounds so magnetic to me that I will be glad to develop something with you if… I stay the same these years…
The only but the most question is… How can I know…
You see, I can't say I know something from several hours conversation. How are you these days? Are we really at the same wavelength? I can't even understand myself most of the time… Will my characteristic stay the same? How long it will stay for? There are so many unknowns against such an profound problem…
Sounds helpless to the occasion that I don't like to bother more. Actually I just need more time to make a accordingly worthy decision. I once asked for my "Fusion", I might tell when my personality finally tend to stabilization. And I'd better wait for that feeling to settle a little. Adapted from a quotation of Gracie Abrams's 21 "If it doesn't go away by the the time it may last. I made a mistake and I'll tell myself I'm sorry"
Therefore, I conceive that I won't harass you anymore unless another nightmare strings one day and shamefully I require another consolation. In the meantime I will be waiting quietly in case you need any of my help. For the last word maybe, let me appreciate you kindness once again and send you my faithful bless-
May my valkyries wing your victory… my forever brisk silhouette…

by Sylvanyao @ 2020-07-13 @ Wuhan, Hanyang District
originally posted @ https://user.qzone.qq.com @ 2020-07-13
repost @ https://www.cnblogs.com @ 2022-06-19