Steve Jobs 2005年于 Stanford University 毕业典礼上的演讲
Steve Jobs 2005年于 Stanford University 毕业典礼上的演讲
Thank you. I'm honored to be with you today for your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. Truth be told, I never graduated from college and this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation.
谢谢大家。很荣幸能和你们,来自世界最好大学之一的毕业生们,一块儿参加毕业典礼。老实说,我大学没有毕业,今天恐怕是我一生中离大学毕业最近的一次了。
Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories. The first story is about connecting the dots.
I dropped out of Reed College after the first six months but then stayed around as a drop-in for another eighteen months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out? It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife, except that when I popped out, they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking, "We've got an unexpected baby boy. Do you want him?" They said, "Of course." My biological mother found out later that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would go to college.
我在里得大学读了六个月就退学了,但是在十八个月之后--我真正退学之前,我还常去学校。为何我要选择退学呢?这还得从我出生之前说起。我的生母是一个年轻、未婚的大学毕业生,她决定让别人收养我。她有一个很强烈的信仰,认为我应该被一个大学毕业生家庭收养。于是,一对律师夫妇说好了要领养我,然而最后一秒钟,他们改变了注意,决定要个女孩儿。然后我的排在收养人名单中的养父母在一个深夜接到电话,“很意外,我们多了一个男婴,你们要吗?”“当然要!”但是我的生母后来又发现我的养母没有大学毕业,养父连高中都没有毕业。她拒绝在领养书上签字。几个月后,我的养父母保证会让我上大学,她妥协了。
This was the start in my life. And seventeen years later, I did go to college, but I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life, and no idea of how college was going to help me figure it out, and here I was, spending all the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back, it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out, I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me and begin dropping in on the ones that looked far more interesting.
这是我生命的开端。十七年后,我上大学了,但是我很无知地选了一所差不多和斯坦福一样贵的学校,几乎花掉我那蓝领阶层养父母一生的积蓄。六个月后,我觉得不值得。我看不出自己以后要做什么,也不晓得大学会怎样帮我指点迷津,而我却在花销父母一生的积蓄。所以我决定退学,并且相信没有做错。一开始非常吓人,但回忆起来,这却是我一生中作的最好的决定之一。从我退学的那一刻起,我可以停止一切不感兴趣的必修课,开始旁听那些有意思得多的课。
It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms. I returned Coke bottles for the five-cent deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the seven miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example.
事情并不那么美好。我没有宿舍可住,睡在朋友房间的地上。为了吃饭,我收集五分一个的旧可乐瓶,每个星期天晚上步行七英里到哈尔-克里什纳庙里改善一下一周的伙食。我喜欢这种生活方式。能够遵循自己的好奇和直觉前行后来被证明是多么的珍贵。让我来给你们举个例子吧。
Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer was beautifully hand-calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and sans-serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.
当时的里得大学提供可能是全国最好的书法指导。校园中每一张海报,抽屉上的每一张标签,都是漂亮的手写体。由于我已退学,不用修那些必修课,我决定选一门书法课上上。在这门课上,我学会了“serif”和"sans-serif"两种字体、学会了怎样在不同的字母组合中改变字间距、学会了怎样写出好的字来。这是一种科学无法捕捉的微妙,楚楚动人、充满历史底蕴和艺术性,我觉得自己被完全吸引了。
None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me, and we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts, and since Windows just copied the Mac, it's likely that no personal computer would have them.
一开始实在看不出所有这些会对我的实际生活应用有任何帮助。但是十年后当我们在设计苹果第一台电脑的时候,这些东西都跑出来了,我把它们全都设计到了电脑里。那是第一台有漂亮字体的电脑。如果我从来没有选过那门课,苹果电脑就不会有那些漂亮的字型,又因为微软是完全拷贝苹果,很有可能,个人电脑就不会有这些漂亮的字体了。If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on that calligraphy class and personals computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do.如果我没有退学,我就不会去修那门写字课,个人电脑就不会像现在这样有令人愉悦的字体了。
Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college, but it was very, very clear looking backwards 10 years later. Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward. You can only connect them looking backwards, so you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something--your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever--because believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart, even when it leads you off the well-worn path, and that will make all the difference.
当然,当我还在大学时向前预测是完全不可能把这些点滴串联起来的,然而十年后再回顾时,就显得很明朗了。再说一遍,往前看,是连接不起这些点滴的,只有往后看才行。所以你必须相信,那些点点滴滴,会在你未来的生命里,以某种方式串联起来。你必须相信一些东西--你的勇气、宿命、生活、因缘,随便什么--因为相信这些点滴能够一路连接会给你带来循从本觉的自信,它使你走离平凡,变得与众不同。
My second story is about love and loss. I was lucky. I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents' garage when I was twenty. We worked hard and in ten years, Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4,000 employees. We'd just released our finest creation, the Macintosh, a year earlier, and I'd just turned thirty, and then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew, we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so, things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge, and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our board of directors sided with him, and so at thirty, I was out, and very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating. I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down, that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure and I even thought about running away from the Valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me. I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I'd been rejected but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.
第二个故事是关于爱与失的。我很幸运。很早就发现自己喜欢做的事情。我二十岁的时候就和沃茨在父母的车库里开创了苹果公司。我们工作得很努力,十年后,苹果公司成长为拥有四千名员工,价值二十亿的大公司。我们只是推出了最好的创意,Macintosh操作系统,在这之前的一年,也就是我刚过三十岁,我被解雇了。你怎么可能被一个亲手创立的公司解雇?事情是这样的,在公司成长期间,雇佣了一个我们认为非常聪明,可以和我一起经营公司的人。一年后,我们对公司未来的看法产生分歧,董事长站在了他的一边。于是,在我三十岁的时候,我出局了,很公开地出局了。我整个成年生活的焦点没了,这很要命。一开始的几个月我真的不知道该干什么。我觉得我让公司的前一代创建者们失望了,我把传给我的权杖给弄丢了。我与戴维德-帕珂德和鲍勃-诺埃斯见面,试图为这彻头彻尾的失败道歉。我败得如此之惨以至于我想要逃离这儿。有个东西在慢慢地叫醒我。我还爱着我从事的行业。这次失败一点儿都没有改变这一点。我被逐了,但我仍爱着。我决定从新开始。
I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods in my life. During the next five years I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the world's first computer-animated feature film, "Toy Story," and is now the most successful animation studio in the world.
当时我没有看出来,但事实证明“被苹果开除”是发生在我身上最好的事。成功的重担被重新起步的轻松替代,对任何事情都不再特别看重。这让我感觉如此自由,进入一生中最有创造力的阶段。接下来的五年,我创立了一个叫NeXT的公司,接着又建立了Pixar,然后与后来成为我妻子的女人相爱。Pixar出品了世界第一个电脑动画电影:“玩具总动员”,现在它已经是世界最成功的动画制作工作室了。
In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT and I returned to Apple and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance, and Lorene and I have a wonderful family together.
在一系列的成功运转后,苹果收购了NeXT,我又回到了苹果。我们在NeXT开发的技术在苹果的复兴中起了核心作用,另外劳琳和我组建了一个幸福的家庭。
I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful-tasting medicine but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life's going to hit you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love, and that is as true for work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work, and the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking, and don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it, and like any great relationship it just gets better and better asthe years roll on. So keep looking. Don't settle.
我非常确信,如果我没有被苹果炒掉,这些就都不会发生。这个药的味道太糟了,但是我想病人需要它。有些时候,生活会给你迎头一棒。不要丧失信心。我确信唯一让我一路走下来的是我对自己所做事情的热爱。你必须去找你热爱的东西,对工作如此,对你的爱人也是这样的。工作会占据你生命中很大的一部分,你只有相信自己做的是伟大的工作,你才能怡然自得。如果你还没有找到,那么就继续找,不要停。全心全意地找,当你找到时,你会知道的。就像任何真诚的关系,随着时间的流逝,只会越来越紧密。所以继续找,不要停。
My third story is about death. When I was 17 I read a quote that went something like "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself, "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "no" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something. Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important thing I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life, because almost everything--all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure--these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.
我的第三个故事关于死亡。我十七岁的时候读到过一句话“如果你把每一天都当作最后一天过,有一天你会发现你是正确的”。这句话给我留下了深刻的印象。从那以后,过去的三十三年,每天早上我都会对着镜子问自己:“如果今天是我的最后一天,我会不会做我想做的事情呢?”当答案持续否定一些次数后,我知道我需要改变一些东西了。提醒自己就要死了是我遇见的最大的帮助,帮我作了生命中的大决定。因为几乎任何事——所有的荣耀、骄傲、对难堪和失败的恐惧——在死亡面前都会消隐,留下真正重要的东西。提醒自己就要死亡是我知道的最好的方法,用来避开担心失去某些东西的陷阱。你已经赤裸裸了,没有理由不听从于自己的心愿。
About a year ago, I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctors' code for "prepare to die." It means to try and tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next ten years to tell them, in just a few months. It means to make sure that everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.
大约一年前,我被诊断出患了癌症。我早上七点半作了扫描,清楚地显示在我的胰腺有一个肿瘤。我当时都不知道胰腺是什么东西。医生们告诉我这几乎是无法治愈的,还有三到六个月的时间。我的医生建议我回家,整理一切。在医生的辞典中,这就是“准备死亡”的意思。就是意味着把要对你小孩说十年的话在几个月内说完;意味着把所有东西搞定,尽量让你的家庭活得轻松一点;意味着你要说“永别”了。
I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope, the doctor started crying, because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and, thankfully, I am fine now.
我整日都与诊断书待在一起。那天晚上我做了一个活切片检查,他们将一个内窥镜伸进我的喉咙,穿过胃,直达小肠,用一根针在我的胰腺肿瘤上取了几个细胞。我当时服了镇定剂,但是我的妻子告诉我,那些医生在显微镜下看到细胞的时候开始尖叫,因为发现这竟然是一种非常罕见的可用手术治愈的胰腺癌症。我做了手术,谢天谢地,我痊愈了。
This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope it's the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept. No one wants to die, even people who want to go to Heaven don't want to die to get there, and yet, death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because death is very likely the single best invention of life. It's life's change agent; it clears out the old to make way for the new. right now, the new is you. But someday, not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it's quite true. Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma, which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice, and most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
这是我最接近死亡的时候,我也希望是我未来几十年里最接近死亡的一次。这次死里逃生让我比以往只知道死亡是一个有用而纯粹书面概念的时候更确信地告诉你们,没有人愿意死,即使那些想上天堂的人们也不愿意通过死亡来达到他们的目的。但是死亡是每个人共同的终点,没有人能够逃脱。也应该如此,因为死亡很可能是生命最好的发明。它去陈让新。现在,你们就是“新”。但是有一天,不用太久,你们有会慢慢变老然后被清除。抱歉,这很戏剧性,但却是真的。你们的时间是有限的,不要浪费在重复别人的生活上。不要被教条束缚,那意味着会和别人思考的结果一块儿生活。不要被其他人的喧嚣观点掩盖自己内心真正的声音。你的直觉和内心知道你想要变成什么样子。所有其他东西都是次要的。
When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalogue, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stuart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late Sixties, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and Polaroid cameras. it was sort of like Google in paperback form thirty-five years before Google came along. It was idealistic, overflowing with neat tools and great notions. Stuart and his team put out several issues of the The Whole Earth Catalogue, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-Seventies and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath were the words, "Stay hungry, stay foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. "Stay hungry, stay foolish." And I have always wished that for myself, and now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you. Stay hungry, stay foolish.
我年轻的时候,有一份叫做“完整地球目录”的好杂志,是我们这一代人的圣经之一。它是一个叫斯纠华特-布兰得,住在离这不远的曼罗公园的家伙创立的。他用诗一般的触觉将这份杂志带到世界。那是六十年代后期,个人电脑出现之前,所以这份杂志全是用打字机、剪刀和偏光镜制作的。有点像软皮包装的google,不过却早了三十五年。它理想主义,全文充斥着灵巧的工具和伟大的想法。斯纠华特和他的小组出版了几期“完整地球目录”,在完成使命之前,他们出版了最后一期。那是七十年代中期,我和你们差不多大。最后一期的封底是一张清晨乡村小路的照片,如果你有冒险精神,可以自己找到这条路。下面有一句话,“求知若饥,虚心若愚。”。这是他们的告别语,“求知若饥,虚心若愚。”。我常以此勉励自己。现在,在你们即将踏上新旅程的时候,我也希望你们能这样。求知若饥,虚心若愚。
Thank you all, very much.
非常感谢。
------------------------------ Steve Jobs说,你得找出你爱的 (You've got to find what you love.)。 今天,有荣幸来到各位从世界上最好的学校之一毕业的毕业典礼上。我从来没从大学毕业。说实话,这是我离大学毕业最近的一刻。今天,我只说三个故事,不谈大道理,三个故事就好。 第一个故事,是关于人生中的点点滴滴怎么串连在一起。 我在里德学院(Reed college)待了六个月就办休学了。到我退学前,一共休学了十八个月。那么,我为什么休学? 这得从我出生前讲起。我的亲生母亲当时是个研究生,年轻未婚妈妈,她决定让别人收养我。她强烈觉得应该让有大学毕业的人收养我,所以我出生时,她就准备让我被一对律师夫妇收养。但是这对夫妻到了最后一刻反悔了,他们想收养女孩。所以在等待收养名单上的一对夫妻,我的养父母,在一天半夜里接到一通电话,问他们“有一名意外出生的男孩,你们要认养他吗?”而他们的回答是“当然要”。后来,我的生母发现,我现在的妈妈从来没有大学毕业,我现在的爸爸则连高中毕业也没有。她拒绝在认养文件上做最后签字。直到几个月后,我的养父母同意将来一定会让我上大学,她才软化态度。 十七年后,我上大学了。但是当时我无知选了一所学费几乎跟史丹佛一样贵的大学,我那工人阶级的父母所有积蓄都花在我的学费上。六个月后,我看不出念这个书的价值何在。那时候,我不知道这辈子要干什么,也不知道念大学能对我有什么帮助,而且我为了念这个书,花光了我父母这辈子的所有积蓄,所以我决定休学,相信船到桥头自然直。当时这个决定看来相当可怕,可是现在看来,那是我这辈子做过最好的决定之一。当我休学之后,我再也不用上我没兴趣的必修课,把时间拿去听那些我有兴趣的课。 这一点也不浪漫。我没有宿舍,所以我睡在友人家里的地板上,靠着回收可乐空罐的五先令退费买吃的,每个星期天晚上得走七哩的路绕过大半个镇去印度教的 Hare Krishna神庙吃顿好料。我喜欢Hare Krishna神庙的好料。追寻我的好奇与直觉,我所驻足的大部分事物,后来看来都成了无价之宝。举例来说: 当时里德学院有着大概是全国最好的书法指导。在整个校园内的每一张海报上,每个抽屉的标签上,都是美丽的手写字。因为我休学了,可以不照正常选课程序来,所以我跑去学书法。我学了serif与san serif字体,学到在不同字母组合间变更字间距,学到活版印刷伟大的地方。书法的美好、历史感与艺术感是科学所无法捕捉的,我觉得那很迷人。 我没预期过学的这些东西能在我生活中起些什么实际作用,不过十年后,当我在设计第一台麦金塔时,我想起了当时所学的东西,所以把这些东西都设计进了麦金塔里,这是第一台能印刷出漂亮东西的电脑。如果我没沉溺于那样一门课里,麦金塔可能就不会有多重字体跟变间距字体了。又因为Windows抄袭了麦金塔的使用方式,如果当年我没这样做,大概世界上所有的个人电脑都不会有这些东西,印不出现在我们看到的漂亮的字来了。当然,当我还在大学里时,不可能把这些点点滴滴预先串在一起,但是这在十年后回顾,就显得非常清楚。 我再说一次,你不能预先把点点滴滴串在一起;唯有未来回顾时,你才会明白那些点点滴滴是如何串在一起的。所以你得相信,你现在所体会的东西,将来多少会连接在一块。你得信任某个东西,直觉也好,命运也好,生命也好,或者业力。这种作法从来没让我失望,也让我的人生整个不同起来。 我的第二个故事,有关爱与失去。 我好运-年轻时就发现自己爱做什么事。我二十岁时,跟Steve Wozniak在我爸妈的车库里开始了苹果电脑的事业。我们拼命工作,苹果电脑在十年间从一间车库里的两个小夥子扩展成了一家员工超过四千人、市价二十亿美金的公司,在那之前一年推出了我们最棒的作品-麦金塔,而我才刚迈入人生的第三十个年头,然后被炒鱿鱼。要怎么让自己创办的公司炒自己鱿鱼?好吧,当苹果电脑成长后,我请了一个我以为他在经营公司上很有才干的家伙来,他在头几年也确实干得不错。可是我们对未来的愿景不同,最后只好分道扬镳,董事会站在他那边,炒了我鱿鱼,公开把我请了出去。曾经是我整个成年生活重心的东西不见了,令我不知所措。 有几个月,我实在不知道要干什么好。我觉得我令企业界的前辈们失望-我把他们交给我的接力棒弄丢了。我见了创办HP的David Packard跟创办Intel的Bob Noyce,跟他们说我很抱歉把事情搞砸得很厉害了。我成了公众的非常负面示范,我甚至想要离开矽谷。但是渐渐的,我发现,我还是喜爱着我做过的事情,在苹果的日子经历的事件没有丝毫改变我爱做的事。我被否定了,可是我还是爱做那些事情,所以我决定从头来过。 当时我没发现,但是现在看来,被苹果电脑开除,是我所经历过最好的事情。成功的沉重被从头来过的轻松所取代,每件事情都不那么确定,让我自由进入这辈子最有创意的年代。 接下来五年,我开了一家叫做 NeXT的公司,又开一家叫做Pixar的公司,也跟后来的老婆谈起了恋爱。Pixar接着制作了世界上第一部全电脑动画电影,玩具总动员,现在是世界上最成功的动画制作公司。然后,苹果电脑买下了NeXT,我回到了苹果,我们在NeXT发展的技术成了苹果电脑后来复兴的核心。我也有了个美妙的家庭。 我很确定,如果当年苹果电脑没开除我,就不会发生这些事情。这帖药很苦口,可是我想苹果电脑这个病人需要这帖药。有时候,人生会用砖头打你的头。不要丧失信心。我确信,我爱我所做的事情,这就是这些年来让我继续走下去的唯一理由。你得找出你爱的,工作上是如此,对情人也是如此。你的工作将填满你的一大块人生,唯一获得真正满足的方法就是做你相信是伟大的工作,而唯一做伟大工作的方法是爱你所做的事。如果你还没找到这些事,继续找,别停顿。尽你全心全力,你知道你一定会找到。而且,如同任何伟大的关系,事情只会随着时间愈来愈好。所以,在你找到之前,继续找,别停顿。 我的第三个故事,关于死亡。 当我十七岁时,我读到一则格言,好像是“把每一天都当成生命中的最后一天,你就会轻松自在。”这对我影响深远,在过去33年里,我每天早上都会照镜子,自问:“如果今天是此生最后一日,我今天要干些什么?”每当我连续太多天都得到一个“没事做”的答案时,我就知道我必须有所变革了。 提醒自己快死了,是我在人生中下重大决定时,所用过最重要的工具。因为几乎每件事-所有外界期望、所有名誉、所有对困窘或失败的恐惧-在面对死亡时,都消失了,只有最重要的东西才会留下。提醒自己快死了,是我所知避免掉入自己有东西要失去了的陷阱里最好的方法。人生不带来,死不带去,没什么道理不顺心而为。 一年前,我被诊断出癌症。我在早上七点半作断层扫描,在胰脏清楚出现一个肿瘤,我连胰脏是什么都不知道。医生告诉我,那几乎可以确定是一种不治之症,我大概活不到三到六个月了。医生建议我回家,好好跟亲人们聚一聚,这是医生对临终病人的标准建议。那代表你得试着在几个月内把你将来十年想跟小孩讲的话讲完。那代表你得把每件事情搞定,家人才会尽量轻松。那代表你得跟人说再见了。 我整天想着那个诊断结果,那天晚上做了一次切片,从喉咙伸入一个内视镜,从胃进肠子,插了根针进胰脏,取了一些肿瘤细胞出来。我打了镇静剂,不醒人事,但是我老婆在场。她后来跟我说,当医生们用显微镜看过那些细胞后,他们都哭了,因为那是非常少见的一种胰脏癌,可以用手术治好。所以我接受了手术,康复了。 这是我最接近死亡的时候,我希望那会继续是未来几十年内最接近的一次。经历此事后,我可以比之前死亡只是抽象概念时要更肯定告诉你们下面这些: 没有人想死。即使那些想上天堂的人,也想活着上天堂。但是死亡是我们共有的目的地,没有人逃得过。这是注定的,因为死亡简直就是生命中最棒的发明,是生命变化的媒介,送走老人们,给新生代留下空间。现在你们是新生代,但是不久的将来,你们也会逐渐变老,被送出人生的舞台。抱歉讲得这么戏剧化,但是这是真的。 你们的时间有限,所以不要浪费时间活在别人的生活里。不要被信条所惑-盲从信条就是活在别人思考结果里。不要让别人的意见淹没了你内在的心声。最重要的,拥有跟随内心与直觉的勇气,你的内心与直觉多少已经知道你真正想要成为什么样的人。任何其他事物都是次要的。 在我年轻时,有本神奇的杂志叫做 Whole Earth Catalog,当年我们很迷这本杂志。那是一位住在离这不远的Menlo Park的Stewart Brand发行的,他把杂志办得很有诗意。那是1960年代末期,个人电脑跟桌上出版还没发明,所有内容都是打字机、剪刀跟拍立得相机做出来的。杂志内容有点像印在纸上的Google,在Google出现之前35年就有了:理想化,充满新奇工具与神奇的注记。 Stewart跟他的出版团队出了好几期Whole Earth Catalog,然后出了停刊号。当时是1970年代中期,我正是你们现在这个年龄的时候。在停刊号的封底,有张早晨乡间小路的照片,那种你去爬山时会经过的乡间小路。在照片下有行小字: 求知若饥,虚心若愚。 那是他们亲笔写下的告别讯息,我总是以此自许。当你们毕业,展开新生活,我也以此期许你们。 求知若饥,虚心若愚。 非常谢谢大家。